Ah! Rachel steals the first post >D Don't know why, though.. Can't do much... :D Anyway, if you look under the cut there sould be some avatars of some description... Enjoy!

[12] InuYasha
[9] Ouran High School Host Club
[2] Scrubs
[2] Unkown

Teasers:

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( i predict a riot )

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

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I hate homophobic people, and this.. This just gives us an insight into what some people have to go through. Homophobes - You suck. Go away and never bother me again. Thank you xx

Does it irritate anyone else to sit and download an episode for 37 hours, and then be unable to convert it into WMV for an AMV? Well, that's what happened to me. Suckishhhhhh >( It was the episode of InuYasha where Sesshoumaru saves Kagome!! I had wanted a non-subbed version of that clip for soooo long.. (sigh). I'll have to find another way of getting it, I suppose.

Here, have a drabble:

( Sesshoumaru/Kagome - Dreaming )

It was night, the dark clouds shimmering over the horizon. It was always such, always pleasant and calm, sweet and loving. It was like a dream, shimmering alone in the dark touches of the heavenly stars. A moon and a star, a comparison and yet a perfect pair.

He always said he would like to fly and touch his star, the small twinkling light forbidden, his touch disallowed.

She always said she would like to feel the moon, see it’s power and glory. She was not allowed either, for they both knew, though not together, that it would never happen.

They were apart forever, a single mind wrenched away in darkness and fear as though they had never known each other, and yet, there was a flicker of hope.

Inside a dream, hearts beat tender and soft, and inside a dream, they were together, forever, loyal and loving for eternity.

But they were only dreaming.

Title: When She Loved Me
Author: ShalafiRach
Inspired By: Toy Story 2, Fanfic, Crying XD
Written: 19/01/2007

When Somebody Loved Me - For All The Broken Hearted People In the World.




It was a warm summers day. The sun shone brightly, making the glistening dew on the grass and leaves shimmer like a jewel. A small group walked down the a path, a shimmering group of hope and passion. At the front walked a hanyou and a taija, behind them a kitsune and a fire neko, and trailing behind a miko and a houshi. The miko was smiling brightly as the houshi spoke to her. Words of caring and comfort, talking of his past and what he wished for in his future as she listened. Every hour was locked in his memory, every one of her smiles and every giggle. He would never admit it, but he was falling.. And he thought she was as well.

“And then Mushin-san said..”




There was this one time when she appeared at the bottom of the well, as per usual, but she was not happy. Her eyes were always misted over, her voice distant and sad. It confused them all, but the hanyou was too busy with his dead miko, and the taija was too busy trailing her onii-san to realise. Only the houshi noticed, and only he acted.

“Kagome-sama?” He asked when they were alone for a moment, and she turned to him, tears in her eyes. She knew she could trust him, and so she did.

“My Jii-chan died yesterday,” She told him. “I didn’t even know he was ill.. I’m such a bad person!” The houshi shook his head.

“No, Kagome-sama. Your grandfather knew about your mission here, and he did not wish to worry you, for he knew that if you worried you could get hurt. He loved you very much, and he would like you to think of yourself as being bad,” Kagome looked up at him, and his thumb lifted, drying her tears. It was unsaid, but they both knew it was there, shimmering in each other’s eyes.

“Really, Miroku-san?” She asked softly.

“Yes, Kagome-sama. Now, let’s get back, Shippou will be worried.”




At the back of their group, they always held hands, but broke apart if the hanyou or taija looked back. It was there secret, lasting through the seasons. The hanyou thought the miko was his, both of them, and the taija hoped she held the houshi’s heart. The kitsune knew, but didn’t say a word. The fire neko knew, but couldn’t say a thing, so she sat by and watched, praying that hearts wouldn’t be too broken.

When they camped, it was always the houshi and the miko that went off together to fill up the water or collect the wood. The others thought nothing of it, it was less work for them after all. They always came back with a blush, or giggling, and the others just thought one of them had done something stupid. But the miko and the houshi knew. It was special. It would last.




She had run. The hanyou had been horrible to her as usual, and she had run, hiding from the cruel names and dark thoughts that followed wherever he went. He thought he owned her. The houshi glared at the red clad half-demon and chased after her, leaving a stunned taija behind. The kitsune smiled knowingly, and the fire neko mewled. They all blinked as the sound of his running feet followed and faded.

He soon caught up with her, touching her cheek softly as he smiled. She nuzzled into his, her loneliness and desolation disappearing at the sight and feel of him. Still, no words were spoken, but their thoughts were known.




It had been three years, and she was different. She had left him to walk ahead with the hanyou. Ever since the death of the undead miko, she had been walking with him, laughing with him.. Seemingly falling with him as well. And the houshi stood in the background, his heart breaking. Now that her brother was free, the taija came to him and smiled her smile, glittering and caring as it had been with her, before she left.

He watched her still, her soft laughs that were once only for him, her smile that were his, as she hugged the hanyou with joy. It should have been him that she was hugging, not the person that had broken her heart, the person that had driven her away..

Still, he knew. He could still see it in her eyes. Was she just following what was expected of her? He could see it in her eyes still, and he was waiting for the day… Just waiting. He knew it would come, and his heart clenched at the thought. He hoped it would be soon, for he decided that it would kill him, quite literally, if it wasn’t soon.




Naraku was gone. Finished by a blow from Tessaiga and then the miko’s arrow, the dark hanyou had been destroyed. At a price. Wounds from Naraku made the taija disabled, unable to use her legs. The red clad hanyou became blind, and hours after the battle, he committed suicide. To live without something he needed was a life he didn’t wish for. The miko and the houshi sent the taija, her fire neko and the kitsune cub back to the village. They needed to be treated the most.

They hung back, and when he turned to face her, he could see the true love shining in her eyes. He loneliness and how forgotten he felt left him at that moment, and she wrapped her arms around him, careful of his wounds. He wrapped his around her, the purple glove that once covered his hands gone, forever. His hand reached down, slowly and carefully, until he rubbed something he loved to rub more than anything. A teasing slap rang out around them as the miko cried “hentai!”



It was a year after that final battle. The taija had decided to marry her prince, who said he loved her even if she was no able to use her legs. He allowed the fire neko and the kitsune cub to stay with him, telling them that he needed strong demons to protect his palace. He offered the houshi, once his rival, and the miko, his wife’s best friend, and home as well, but they declined, hand in hand once more. But now, they didn’t have to hide it.

Returning to their home, or what had become their home, they lived beside the elderly miko until her death, where the younger miko took over the position, the houshi as her partner, lover and husband. They were married in the village, surrounded by new friends, and they were happy.

Soon, their home was filled with little Kagomes and little Mirokus. Their laughter was a joy, and when their eldest son came home with a red handprint on his face and a perverted smile on his lips, so much like his father’s, the houshi turned to the miko and gave her an ‘I told you so’ look.

He had always said that it ran in his family. Now she knew it was true.


AN: Started off sad, ended up nice. What can I say? I am a romantic XD I hope you all liked it, and I would love some comments..… If you don’t mind.

Dear god. How hard has Rachel been working to keep all her sites up and updated and shit.. XD

A lot.

And now I have found out that I have to go to France for every holiday this year. EVERY ONE. That's all the half terms, the easter holidays AND the whole damned summer holidayz.

How shitty.

Six weeks without my lovley fanfiction and my wonderful websites?

Hell on earth.

But I can live with my friends' support, right?

Yeahh...

XD

At school everyone seems to think I am a morning person. I swear I get asked at least once a week "Hey, Rach (or Ray-Ray, if they think I am in a bad mood), are you a morning person?" And I just think that I might blow a fuse. How many people are going to ask me that in my life? I always say no, and they always seem suprised and say, "Oh. You seem like a morning person." And walk of. I mean WTH? But that's a pet peeve.

My parents can be such.. grrs. They tell me off for being on the PC too much when they spend the same amount of time as me on their own! Honestly! It makes me want to attack someone. Viciously. With a knife. And then they send me out to get some shopping, and when I get home they are in such a bad mood it's scary.

At least my brother is back from Uni for Christmas. I missed him soos much. I am glad he's back!

Sometimes, rants can be boring, so here is a poem I wrote when I was about eleven

"The moons rise,
On Death, Murder and Evil,
As the bloody survivors,
Cling to life.

Life’s taken, people wonder why,
The gods stare down,
And let the ones they love,
Die.

Clerics come, disbelieving,
Not understanding,
Why the gods did this.
Do they care anymore?

And in the end,
Nothing else matters,
Apart from the struggling sighs
Of those who survived." 

Anyone wanna write my Drama essay for me? =0

-Like clockwork, I commit the crime,
--I pretend to be everything they like.

Hello. I suppose I am back. Hi. <33

I want to work out how the hell to do all those pretty avatar things on here. You know, where there is 'teasers' then you click one something and you get to the actual page? If you can find me that, then I would be happy. Anyone? I am having an avatar fest, I can't stop making them! ^_^;

I'm tired. Can't type anymore. Bye <33

-Rach

-Baby it's you, that I want,
-- So come a little closer and don't get me wrong.

Yes. Language. Naughty Rach. I don't care.

I am being forced, AGAIN to go to france, when I really don't wanna go. Yes, it's only for a few days, but those days are in my precious half-term! I don't want to go to the fking housewhere I have been fourteen fking time doing the same fking things. Honestly! It's so boring I think I might die. In fact, I will. Fk that, the fking sh!t. Why can't I just stay at home? I would be happy, my brother and sister would be happy, and my parents would be happy. Everyone's happy then! >:(

There. Here is my 'lets get swearing out of Rach's system' section. If this offends you, don't read. It will not be edited at all ;o

fuck. shit. ass. bugger. bloody hell. shit, shit, shit, fuck, shit, fuck, fuck, fuck, shit, ass.

There. Thank you ^-^;

-Rach

-Never made it as a wise,
--Couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing.

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.
Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out

Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking

What turns you off: fighting and conflict

Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

Hello, everyone who can be assed to read this. I don't think thats anyone, acctually.. Oh well.

I just realised today how PICK my LJ Layout is. I mean, honestly, it's pink as pink can be! I might change it for the better if I can be bothered... I think I might be able to...

Made some 'grafix' today xD All nice and perty for a David Kaye Fansite. David Kaye is the english voice actor of the wonderfully beautiful, sexy, pretty, hot and adorable Sesshoumaru. *Siighh*

But anyway, I have to go change the pink...

xx Rachel xx

--I wanna run into someones arms,
-Lie, on a bed of roses...

Howdy ho. Who missed me? :P I've been away from here for ages... Where am I supposed to vent? XD But anyway...

I have a headache. And that's never good, right? Well, throw in stomach craps and eyeache (is that a word? XD), and I'm done. Plus I have to go to school. Lucky me!

I am happy, though, because I got the first three InuYasha movies, in English, today. YAY! Non-stop Sesshoumaru throughout the afternoon *Girly sigh* Yayness! XD He's so perty...

I am a techie in the school play! w00tage to the max, there, honeys. XD Ohhh yeah..

Anyway, just wanted to post here so people know I'm not dead. If you actually read this anyway... ;o

Bai!!

-Rach
--It's kinda funny, you were always near,
-Who'd ever thought that we'd end up here?

I'm back! France was alright, though I suppose it could have been better. All in all it was okay. We did go swimming, and to the American Cemetery, so I have a fun time. Yesterday Sophie, my Best Friend, came round, and I had a great day. Seriously, she's so much fun!

Today is my birthday! I am 14 today, at 5:50 am! XD I can't wait for my mini-party at Go Bowling. It's gonna be so much fun! :D

Then, I have school. I'm actually quite looking forwards to it. I get to see all my friends, and I don't have to worry about hating my lessons to much, seeing as I picked them! :P Just need a god damned tie... ;)

You Tube Sucks. Don't even go there. They deleted all my videos! Now, I happily work on Animemusicvideos.org (FYI, AMV.Org). It's okay, but you need to understand PCs a little to get how to use it!

That's all for now, chuck!

Rachel
-- Hey, Hey, Fall In Love,
-- Maybe You're My Love!

PS: Is this the longest entry ever? :o

Yes, dear friends, it is the holiday season. And like many other people, I am adventureing to another dimention.. Or country xD I am off to France on Monday, staying for three weeks in Normady. I will need lots of books.

Lots and lots.

And I will have no freaking Pcs. NONE! No internet, or pcs... or anything... It frikin' sucks.

Who'll miss me?

Rachell..

-- We can try...
-- Brother, My Brother.

I love this video. It's so true, LOL. E>. Go Tony!

I've been having an alright time lately. My dad came back from France yesterday and brought me lots of sweets and chocolate. They're amazing.

I can't wait until the summer holidays. Not only is it my birthday, but it's free from school which is giving me real hell at the moment. In RE we are watching a film called 'Escape From Sobibor'. It's awful. Honestly. The graphic, sickening details make you feel so sad!

I'm still making my videos, though, so I'm happy. Yay me :)

-Rachel
-- If you believe that dreams come true,
-- There's one thats waiting there for you.

Oh dear god. When was the last time I updated this? *Died* Okay.

A lot has been happening in my life. I've been fighting with a bitch at school, given up on the guy I liked, made new friends, and started on... -Shudder- coursework for year ten. How Fking sucky, huh?

I just wanna say a big shout out to Nessica, who's been inspirering me to be a better person. Thank you, Ness. I love you!

Later... I hope..

Rachel
- Through the wind and the rain,
- She stands hard as a stone,
- In a world she can't rise above.

Did you know that Sailor Moon is acctually really cool? I don't know why they took it off the tv. Seriously.

Anyway... My sister is here reading out everything I type, which is REALLY annoying. But dude...

Talking to my mates on MSN. Tom E> Nat E> Mark E> the possie, you know ;) LOL!

Anyway....


Made a ton of New AMV's, including (just thumped my sister HEH HEH), Sailor Moon ones! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Spots.. Uggg...

Walked in the mud with a friend today. Couldn't feel my feet for all the wet sloppiness. YUCK!

Anyhoo...

Bye!

-Rachel
-- Caught in the middle of a saturday night
-But she couldn't find how to push through